I am certainly athletic, and usually pick up on things
fairly quickly, but swimming although I could always swim, is a different game.
A whoooooooooooole different game – and not a ball game! I would find myself
frustrated at times because things just weren’t happening fast enough. I have
really been wanting to graduate from my “turtle” like speed and take my
swimming to the next level for what feels like an eternity!
As someone a bit competitive (shocking to all of you I am
sure), swimming has just always been about beating that clock. It’s been about
being faster than the day, the week, or the month before. I mean – if I swim
every day, I should see progress, right? Preferably a continuous forward
progress rather than the backwards one. That’s
how my brain works. But I would struggle, I would swim, and swim, and swim, and
fight with the silly little clock day in and day out. Some days I would win and some days I would
lose. I would fight the water, and get so mad at myself for not being faster. I would make improvements, only to go right
back to where I came from few days or weeks later AND that to me was beyond
frustrating. I admit, there were days when there were tears involved, but even
though I really wanted to just quit swimming at times, deep down I really never
did and I certainly won’t. I just wanted to quit being so damn slow, and
get faster. Is that too much to ask for? Just graduate from that turtle stage already!
It was apparent to me that this whole swimming fast deal
wasn’t going to happen on its own, and so my coach Jorge, found just what I
needed in the super swim coach Karen, who somehow made swimming FUN for me. I
have been working with Karen since the end of last summer, and she has slowly
but surely transformed me into much more of a swimmer that I ever could have
become on my own. It does however take work, and a bit of sacrifice (sleep). To put things into perspective - there are days when I drive a total of almost 110 miles to go swim with Karen and still be at work by 9am - do you think I want to swim fast?
Aaaaah - Happy Jana
Waving for the camera
Fins make everything better
Am I as fast as I want to be? No!
Will I be? Absolutely!
Do I still care about the clock? Yes, I do! But it’s not the
same. I am learning to accept things better.
Most importantly, I have a new found level of confidence
with which I approach all my swim workouts. I will soon be as fast as this little creature ;)
Sailfish also knows as the fastest fish in the world capable of moving as fast as 68mph! Yes - PLEASE!
Sure – there are still the times when Karen throws out an
interval, and my brain goes into immediate panic mode as in – really? Are you
sure you are not mistaking me for someone else? But instead of my brain quietly
whispering “You can’t do this”, it’s now saying “Go for it and see what happens”.
That particular attitude shift for me is
HUGE! It’s really what is allowing me to swim better than ever right now, and
as much as I would like to say it happened overnight, it didn’t. It took months
– not 1, not 2, not 3, but many more than that. Karen has made me do things, I
never thought I would be capable of doing. I swam with people that were and
still are all way faster than me, and there were and still are times I am the
slowest person in the pool. That for someone as competitive as me isn’t exactly
all that comfortable. But you know what, I did it, I got over myself, I made
new friends, and it didn’t kill me, it really only made me stronger. Swimmers really don't bite ;). I wouldn’t
lie if I didn’t say, I peak over to the next lane and try to keep up (sometimes
it works, sometimes it doesn’t but I am able to use the inability to keep up as
fuel instead of a reason for frustration) and THAT is another HUGE success!
I am very proud to say I can successfully make it at least
25 yards swimming butterfly and that ladies and gentleman is not an easy feat.
(For me that is) Yeah I know – who cares, right? You don’t swim butterfly in a
triathlon, but that’s a whole separate conversation and a can of worms I don’t
want to open up right now. The point here is that I learned something I never
thought I could! And that is priceless to me! It more mentally rather than
physically opened up a whole new world to me!
May not be perfect but it's so fun!
But I am getting a bit carried away, and I need to get back to
THE breakthrough of a swim workout. I had a great little warm up and one part
of the workout as to swim 3 x 500s to swim on a certain interval. That interval
was very tight! Actually I only swam faster than the said interval ONCE before,
and that was on an all out 500. Seeing that before, would make me cringe and
think crazy thoughts, but this time around, I just went for it. Aaaah – LOVE the
attitude change! ;) (Thank you Karen - I still don't know how you did it, but you did) Somehow I just knew before I even swam that I will make it.
I didn’t care if it was by 1 second, I was going to make it. To my absolute surprise, I swam the 1st 500 10
seconds faster than my goal time. I then swam the 2nd 500 another 5
seconds faster than the 1st one, and I felt so good that the 3rd
500 was even faster than the 2nd one. You get the point – In the
end, I just essentially set 3 new PB’s in a row without even going all
out and by quite a bit of a margin. I was on top of the water moving very
fast for me, and I felt it. I felt soooooo good, and I felt indestructible. I was fishing that day was race day because I was unstoppable! I have never been so happy about my swimming ever. I have been swimming well
lately, but I wasn’t expecting this to happen! I will honestly never forget
that day – NEVER! I felt like this guy:
His butterfly is just as good as mine, and his mindset is exactly where mine is at all the time - mmmm food!
Yum! Can I go eat yet?
With my first 70.3 of the season in Quassy coming up in little
less than a week, this day couldn’t have really come in a better time. My
swimming confidence is at an all-time high, and I am very excited to jump in
that lake and see where I am at. Regardless of what happens at Quassy however,
I know I am swimming better than ever, my biking is super solid and my running
is better than it has ever been! It’s only June, but I am very confident in my
fitness level. I am all in for Quassy and I can’t wait to go for it. 5 days and
counting!